baby steps

That was the name of this blog, when I first started my Clomid journey, last year.  Knowing, in my heart, that it was going to work!   And it did.   But then, other things happened and the blog went silent.  I'd been trying to get pregnant for years before that, but I never put it out there publicly and I'd also never tried any medical intervention.   Which is why I was finally starting to chronicle it in a blog.   It's been a rough road, emotionally and mentally, since my little ordeal.  But, now, I'm revving back up and getting ready to go full speed ahead.   Again.  

I made our first appointment with a fertility specialist, and it's already next Monday!  I'm so many "things", with this new endeavor.    I'm nervous, excited, scared, apprehensive, optimistic.   How can I be such an even split of negative and positive emotions?    I'm guessing it's totally normal.   Infertility kind of takes you on that path of so many different feelings, emotions, theories. 

I'll be posting as soon as I get in from my appointment next week, which also falls on Jeff's birthday! What a fun way to celebrate your birthday, right?   Talking about the possibility of becoming a daddy!   Again.  OR finally!     We both want this so much, and maybe more than we ever thought or knew we did.       

Filling out my pre-appointment forms online, was really exciting and sobering at the same time.  I got to the box where it asked if I'd ever been pregnant before.   It was sad to mark YES and then continue to check the ECTOPIC box, but at the same time, I feel like it is a reminder that I actually got pregnant!   See, there can be a silver lining to all that's dark and cloudy sometimes.

So, wish us luck, and send lots of positive vibes!