the day has come...

Tonight is my first appointment with the specialist!   While, I am going to see this doctor, in hopes of having a baby, I'm also glad that the office is not just a fertility center.   They specialize in endocrine and reproductive disorders/conditions, as well as fertility.    Because, after all, women have those issues and need to treat them, but aren't always desiring to have children.   I guess I get the best of both worlds in that way.

Of course, I'm still dealing with the Period From Hell.    I'm on week #3 right now.   I know most of you will gasp in reading that, but it's actually not that shocking to me.  I've dealt with that for so many years.  If I wasn't taking a birth control pill, to regulate my cycles, I would get a period for months at a time, or I wouldn't get one for months at a time.   And yes, I've always wanted children, so taking the BCP was hard for me to consider.    But without it, it left me open for so many other issues.

I'm very hopeful about the doctor I'm meeting with - and I'm nervous too.    I know he'll be thorough and will do all in his power, to get down to the root of my problem.  Hormonal imbalance, thyroid?    So many things it could be.  In my 20's I was told "PCOS with anovulation"... so I walked away with that diagnosis.   I always had the option of trying medical intervention, in the form of ovulation drugs or metformin, but I was stubborn.    I wanted to be a "miracle" case, who just ended up pregnant by the Grace of God, and without taking any drugs to manipulate my body.

My ultimate hope is that I will have the HSG done on my remaining tube and it will be clear, and then I can try Clomid again.  (because, after all, it did work for me)
We'll see what the doc says; he is the expert after all.  But I can still voice my thoughts.  He's gotten really great reviews and came recommended by a coworker, so I'm going in with a positive attitude and an open mind!