Tired...

When you are trying to get pregnant, and it practically starts to consume you, it really gets mentally exhausting.    I can't tell you how consumed by it,I feel, some days.    It really is like a part time job - the record keeping, the signs and symptoms you're trying to note and track, the testing with the OPKs and the HPTs.   Temping, counting....   I know, as I'm sure you'll agree, that some day it will all be worth it.   But some days I think I'm trying so hard, that it won't.

A lot of  the ladies, that I have met have mentioned how people say "don't think about it and it's then that it'll happen".    I know that sounds silly and I always thought so.   Until, last year, when I did get a BFP. A few weeks before that I had all but given up and stopped testing, almost every day.    I took that test, for no particular reason.    And only a few weeks before that, I had stopped making it a chore to test, and BD, and write everything down.

So, maybe it's true...  When we stop focusing so hard on it, that may just be when it surprises us.